So I started to fall in love with the ground again like some freak in the mud attached to it and rubbing it into my pores whenever the eyes were on me,

So they would know I was loyal to my cause and I’d rub it in even more when they looked away so that I’d know I was loyal to my cause, no need to let the scabs heal.

How could I ever change the texture of my skin otherwise? I was on the fast track to the center of myself, going nowhere fast, I wanted to be small!

I wanted to taste it, the oh so sweet lysergic world I so rarely achieved. I’d never found it alone, got a one track mind with seats for two.

This wasn’t safe ground! It never was!We weren’t programmed to act like this, our orders were specific, her world was spinning enough as it were, I was staring at her!

Kept on staring so long that she blended into the mirrors. I did this thousands of times to thousands of faces! I warped them all within to see me in my own face, the reflection was never true for long.
My orders (x3):
so specific and wrong!

And worst of all I gave myself these orders
A sentiment mistaken from the start
I truly thought I wasn’t doing damage
Had no idea I’d cut out my own heart

The feelings they had all retracted inward
More sensitive than ever what a joke
You only beat yourself up quite so many different times
Before your friendships all go up in smoke

I could have sworn I never wanted pity
But come on try and tell it to my mouth
I stutter like a beggar in the city
So desperate and disingenuous, I’ve sent it south

If only she’d held on a few days longer
A lie I whisper with a happy tune
They’re claiming vengeance dearest me, they’re stronger
It’s easier to run and send myself off to the moon

I roam my lonely crowded hall of mirrors
With all these sweet reflections propped and shelved
So when I hear the screaming of my victims
I only see the victim in myself

The only thing between me and the truth now
A red brick wall with eye-holes painted on
I bash my head until I change the vision
I might just keep on bashing til I’m gone… (x?)